Lately I have not been feeling the greatest. Between being mentally exhausted and physically exhausted and having to manage to keep my life together is a HUGE struggle. My body is sore in places I never knew could be sore. My right hip is turning more causing my knee to turn towards my other knee. I’m clumsy. I have no balance, and I am probably at the weakest I have ever been. Like literally having no strength, struggling to open simple things.
There are days where I want to just stay in bed and cry. Although it solves nothing, it sounds lovely. Getting out of bed is a struggle, I usually have an energy crash around 3pm, then it’s on to forcing myself to do things. There are days where I don’t want to be here. Whether or not I mean in this physical world or where I am at in life, is up in the air at this moment.
I usually have about 2 days in the week/weekend where I want to do something. Like escape reality. Escape the city life, where it is nothing but chaos and sirens constantly. My place of solitude is about 18 miles away, give or take. I can’t access it in the winter, but, during the summer it is my second home.
A place where I can reflect on my life, what has happened and how far I have come to this day. Other times I think about how hard it is to live in this world. Then there’s times where I go and just become one with nature, and enjoy the fresh air.
This is my home away from home:
Reflections, on the ever so still river that brings me more happiness than I could imagine. Such beauty in nature, isn’t there?
The trees are starting to change colors around here, and frankly, I am not ready to let this place go for the winter to roll in soon. To me the winter starts when fall is about a month in to it’s season. It snows around the end of October and that’s only a little over a month away! Ugh.